I know I shouldn't dwell on these thoughts. They're just fears and irrational feelings meant to bother me and unnerve me as this draws to a close, something to shatter my faith which has only recently begun to bloom as it should have all along and to cause me to stumble in the newfound confidence I'd thought I'd gained. See that change already? ' ( Read more... )

Hehe, always interesting to see what the last draft was. I'm going to post here tonight, but I want to do it when I have time to really think about it.

It's amazing how often we lie to ourselves and don't realize it. I was just reading over some old entries and realized how much BULL was in them. lol. o well. live and learn.

So now the truth is out and...I hate it. It hurts. Not the mind-numbing, gut-wrenching hurt of previous entries, but still...I guess what hurts the most is having known the answer and having it confirmed. But I guess it doesn't hurt as much as it should because I'm realizing this may be the catalyst I need for change. I wouldn't have been able to ( Read more... )

Sometimes I get so tired of being mom.
But I'll never stop. Not while there's still people that need me, not when I can help, at least in some small way, just by being there.
But sometimes...I dunno what I want. Would I really let someone mom me or would I get all weird about it? Who knows.

Hugs. I craves them.

So, the only thing I learned in church today, even though the rest of the message was really good, came from one brief sentence the pastor said. I don't even think he said this specifically. Wait, he didn't even say it. Some lady did. Anyway ( Read more... )

"Unfulfilled hopes have left her feeling uncertain and even a little fearful about the future. Needs to feel secure and avoid further disappointment; fears she will be looked over, lose her position, or lose respect. Has little hope that things will get better in time and her negative attitude leads her to place impossible demands on others or to ( Read more... )

tired. Extremely so. Been that way for awhile now. I dunno why though and that's really frustrating. I get sleep, but I find myself falling asleep at random times throughout the day and constantly feeling like a slug. Sorry if I've been pretty boring the past few days guys. I'm just exhausted.

Why I felt like that needed to be a lj entry I dunno

Always read mlia for inspiration.

I'm stupid. Being bitter about love. Stupid. There's someone out there for me :)

About my postcard ( Read more... )