I will grit my teeth and hold my breath as this so heavily dreaded day begins.

It's 12:38 in the morning and already my chest is heavy. I just don't know if I can stomach the scene that plays over and over in my head anymore. Nor am sure if I can deal with the thought of how lonely this could potentially be.

Last year I was actually excited. I will ( Read more... )

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Ceremony @ Deer Park VFW 11/19/08

When I asked my friend how the show went, he simply sent me this.
I really, truly regret not going.

It really fucking hurts to hear one of your closests friends complain on an every day basis about how they want to get out. About how they need this drastic change and to start over. It's one thing to want a change in your life, but don't sit and complain and do nothing to stimulate that change.

A CHANGE OF SCENERY WILL NOT CHANGE WHO YOU ARE.
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It's disturbing how much one can change in only a summer's time.
There is so much to say, and yet in saying it I would be undoing all of the changes I have made.

I've hit a little bit of a rough patch, but I'm managed to keep my head up this time. I keep thinking of all of the shows we have lined up, and that's enough to make my day. I don't care ( Read more... )

summer goal finally accomplished.
thanks to dan, matt, mike & jackson for being even more ridiculous than you all usually are.

it was a nice break from everything i've been feeling lately.

and finally, i dont dread being in my house much, these days. its a weird, though nice feeling.

the silence on the other end is what kills me. i had so much more so say, but i want you to want to listen. i really did have so much more to tell you.

Friends only.
just because. honestly, it's only stupid ranting anyway.
I think I've got everyone I need on my friends list already, but if you want to be added, comment.