Well i thought that i trusted anthony with my feelings for the last couple of months him and i have been talking and now i find out that everything he has been telling me he has been telling her i should have listened to what nikki and zac said why would he do this to me. i just dont get it i want to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep i will ( Read more... )

wow the last few days have been interesting this trick tasia like she totally tried to piss me off and it almost worked but i then had to remember that what i wrote about ashley wasnt for me it was for ashley if i was tasia i would keep ass on those antidepressants i knew there was something mentally wrong with her but anyways yeahashley just needs ( Read more... )

WELL I WENT AND PICK UP ALL OF JAMES' BELONGINGS ON FRIDAY AND I FOUND A LETTER ONE OF HIS BUDDIES WROTE HIM AND IT SAYS SOMETHING ABOUT JAMES WRITING ANOTHER GIRL I HAVENT TALKED TO HIM YET BUT TONIGHT IS GOING TO BE A VERY HARD NIGHT FOR ME BECAUSE IF IT WAS TRUE I THINK I WOULD TELL HIM WE NEED TO BOTH SLEEP ON IT AND SEE WHAT WE SHOULD DO I ( Read more... )

wow i havent looked at this thing in like forever hehe but anywho i've been chillen at my friends pad lately well i guess i could call it my house too. i do as much stuff around that house then anybody else. i also put food in that house so yeah!!! i miss my boyfriend alot yeah he's still locked up but i miss him i want him to hold me like he use ( Read more... )

well its monday morning and yesterday my parents definately came home and shit hit the fan we were screaming at each other for a good 4 hours and in the end i won i think i made my mom leave the house for a couple of hours and my dad was really pissed when that happened so him and i had it out but oh well shit happens....everyday!!! but hey i am ( Read more... )

well this whole week i havent updated my journal because i have had semester exams and i had to do good so i studied my ass off then on wendsday james called me at 9:45pm and him and i got into an argument over stupid bullshit i think we were arguing because we both miss eachothe rvery much and all i want is for him to come home but that doesnt ( Read more... )

I DREAM OF YOUR TOUCH WHILE YOU ARE AWAY,
I DREAM OF YOUR SMILE ALL THROUGH THE DAY,
I REMEMBER THE DAY,
YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE,
I DREAM OF THE DAY I WILL BE YOUR WIFE,
I DREAM OF THE DAY I CAN FALL ASLEEP NEXT TO YOU!
I DREAM OF THE DAY I CAN SAY,"I DO!"
TO BE YOUR WIFE,
TO BE TOGETHER FOR LIFE,
IS A DREAM I HAVE EVERY NIGHT.

WOW! SO MUCH SHIT HAS BEEN HAPPENING JAMES CALLED ME AND HES ALL DEPRESSED HE NEEDS MONEY AND I DONT HAVE ANY I CAME HOME SUNDAY NIGHT AND I GOT A LETTER FROM JAMES AND IT WAS ALREADY OPENED I WONDER HOW THAT HAPPENED MAYBE DAD AND THE EVIL STEP MOTHER! MOST LIKELY! DAD IS ALL UPSET BECAUSE HE FOUND OUT JAMES AND I WERE HAVING SEX!!! NOW HES GOING ( Read more... )

I,ve been so depressed lately. I want my husband to come home. I haate it here with out him my whole life goes down the drain ya know i love james with all my heart all i do all day long is think of him he wont be home until august he's kinda locked up right now and it sux cause its killing me. i was with him everysingle day for 7 1/2 months and ( Read more... )

well i just got home from school i am tired as hell but anyways i just started this whole thing and i cant figure it all out i need to talk to bybybumblebee but yeah i will talk at you later i have to make my journal sheet all cute and stuff!!