I have been so incredibly irritable lately. Everyday I find the time to do the million things that need to get done, and then prepare for the next day of tasks... after that stay away. When I finally seem to find the time to "rest", I am so tired/angry/irritated/flustered, that I don't want to do ANYTHING. I have no clue why I have been feeling ( Read more... )

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( Dear _____, )

my way of defeating that really overwhelming aloneness is by loving other people and being loved in return.

that in return part has been the hardest.

(+)anthony and i saw Bright Eyes last night.

(-)the venue was lame.

(+)we snuck down to the front row. conor is so hot.

(-)my ex was there, and couldnt even say hi.

(+)the show was amazing. i cried.

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Yesterday was the very worst.
I guess I could sit here and list all the events and moments that contibuted to my feeling depressed by sundown, but the reality is no one really cares and that won't help me any.

Just so you all know; there are reasons for why i do the things i do, and while they may not make sense to you i just don't care.

hiiiiii i love mtyt baby. his name is rustin, and he never knows i tell him about it. but yes i do. sooooooo much - itys crazy.0 yep ge is on the [phone and justin is stand9ng here reading this, i love hom (rustin) abnd i lkove justin ity rhymes, so good. and yeaaaayyyy! anbd i dont driker any.

dont update while intoxicated

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