So...I don't think i really understand what is going on right now...Or why it is happening...I wish things were different, but i don't think they'll ever be different...I'm sorry that i'm the way i am... I'm sorry I can't be somenoe you would like me to be. I'm sorry...

So we had a scrimage today and it didn't exactly go so well... It was the first time we'd actually been on a feild to practice and we just weren't ready... Its okay though cause i'm pretty sure that things will get better...

Thats all i had to say...

So...I don't want to make this about me... It isn't....well it is because i'm the dumbest person like in the world... I know this... ANd i didn't mean to hurt anyone. I just didn't think.  I should have known but I fucked up.  I know what its like to be in this position, and it seemed like everyone else got into it when I was already over it.  I ( Read more... )

So does anyone just ever really get sick of everything.  Everything just seems so overwhelming right now and I can't handle it...Like honestly I can't.  I'm sick of fucking pretending and I don't even want to do this anymore...Screw this all....

So i'm in indiana now...I'm having a lot fun, its so funny because everyone here is completely different then everyone at home. I mean my friends. Christi is really open with things and i'm not used to it... But it cracks me up. This college is really cool and there are alot of really good people here. I was informed that they didn't have a ( Read more... )

So softball is finally here...And i'm kinda really excited... I mean we run a lot but its okay cause i need it...And plus all the running added up can't make me not excited about the season... I feel like such a geek but its okay... And like I feel so dumb though because our coach makes it seem so important to be fast (which I'm not) (i'm not the ( Read more... )

Anyone do something just completely stupid? Yeah cause I definatly did something completely dumb... I should be shot...Ü -----bang!!! 

-I have officially decided that my livejournal is completely boring...I have nothing interesting to say...EVER...i have all of these things that no one really gives a rats ass about... Oh well... Softball is in two weeks!!! I'm kinda really excited for that... I'll be busy and i'll have fun.. Hopefully...

-I can't believe that i lost touch with some ( Read more... )

SO things have been ight lately...Been pretty busy and tired lately.  I'm pretty sure school is the most dreaded thing by me right now and i refuse to go...

Had to work on Friday night, then I hung out with malissa....SHe left yesterday for a week.  I'm pretty sure i dont' know what to do with myself now.  I think i might still go over to her house ( Read more... )

So things have been pretty crazy lately. Life without work for 2 weeks has been good.. but i'm sad to say it is over in two days... Its not like I work a lot but still.

I'm not sure if I wrote this in my last entry but the SOFTBALL coach from Cornerstone emailed me and told me, he is going to call me and talk to me about playing with them.  I'm ( Read more... )