Hey everyone sorry I haven’t updated in long time. To be honest I just didn’t feel like writing because I didn’t have much to talk about. I think I am finally over my ex, I don’t know why it was so hard to get over him but then again I really wasn’t trying until I started to like someone else. I really like this other guy a lot but I am unsure if ( Read more... )

I really feel like shit right now. I found out that my ex thinks that I am ugly and that he has a crush on one of my friends on the soccer team. I cant blame him for liking her, she is a really nice person and everything. When I found out that he liked her and how he thought I was bad looking I just started to cry. I stopped crying long enough to ( Read more... )

The past few days have really sucked. I don't know how to even begin to explain everything. I have had one of my friends calling me almost everyday this week to bitch about my other friends. I don't get how she can act so nice to there face and then talk shit like she does. Jessica C. and Heather have been bitching that I have been a snob because I ( Read more... )

OK I was supposed to have a date with Thad tomorrow but lets just say that didn't go well at all. When I called him last night he put me on hold for about 30 minutes just because I haven't called him back in 9 days. I just didn't know what to say to him and I don't feel right calling him when I like someone else. He finally did say he would go to ( Read more... )

I really don't know what to think right now. I found out the other day that my grandpa has colon cancer but really didn't think anything of it until just a little while ago when my grandma came over crying. I guess I just never though that another person in my family would get cancer. I really wish that there was a cure. I know friends that have ( Read more... )

how stupid could I be
a simpleton could see
that you're no good for me

Jill was right again! I thought that I could deal with the little bitches from my exs school but I was really wrong. When she said they were bad I didn't think that they would be this fucking bad. They have really been trying to make my life hell and so fat they have ( Read more... )

Well, I just got off the phone with one of my friends a little bit ago and I still cant sleep! Talking to her is always fun though and she puts me in a good mood. She is one of those friends who you know you can really trust and is always there when you need her. I am really looking forward for soccer and basketball tomorrow because I heard Kelie ( Read more... )

I really hate how my parents always manage to make me feel like shit. I really do try my best to please them and yet it never is good enough. Today I found myself arguing with them because they were bitching how I "never spend time with them". I see my parents everyday and night..isnt that enough? Then they tell me that they don't think they are ( Read more... )

Why am I never good enough?
The words you say are just so mean
Choking my self esteem
I learned a long time ago my best is never enough
I cant be what you want me to be
I can just be me
why cant you see?
Look what you are doing to me

Today was sort of a boring day. All I did was spend most of the day around the house and then went to see a movie. I zoned-out (fell asleep) during the movie a little. I didn't even realize I did it until my friends told me. I guess I have just had a lot on my mind and haven't been able to sleep much. My parents have been driving me nuts lately ( Read more... )