well

[hollowlies]

that was over quickly.....saddened but surprisingly ok-
makes me think about the durability of the human heart-
makes me realize that mastery of the emotions is possible-
makes me understand that what I possess is a fairly
balanced mixture of rationality and spontaneity.

what do you possess?

here's to opiates, hip hip hooray!!!!!!

Comments

[lisaroseit]

you are silly, and I haven't talked to you in a while, how are things?

[targetmarket]

a tiny voice in my chest cheers along with you in celebration of the opiates. ask me about it and i will deny it exists, that ever such a sound was uttered. because i'm clean, sparkling--12 steps and higher powers, acronym provided by ounselor: "Group Of Druggies." Does that help you? Can you relate better to the concept of a higher power? oh, but the only power i can fathom now is that force which is required to lightly pull back and then thrust forward the plunger, in in in in...

denial. i do not do this, not that, none of it, no.
fitter, happier, more productive.
THE MOST GIGANTIC LYING MOUTH OF ALL TIME.

hiccup.

[hollowlies]

keep doing what you're doing and certainly don't
listen to me right now-I have no clue what is happening.

you'll get it right....I have faith in that.

[reliefbyrant]

using opiates to master your heart...sounds like a plan

[hollowlies]

it's the best one I could come up with.....

hopefully I will develope into
a "fitter, happier, more productive" person but
alas, I am not that right now.

numb is better then pain.

[sneak_a_toke]

being numb (all or even some of the time) will just make the cycle more vicious than it already is.

[hollowlies]

I do not necessarily agree with that my dear august, I think that people use many different ways to cope with loss, death, bad grades etc....While some eat chocolate, write, go out and fuck another person, I have just chosen to cope or deal with things by taking opiates. I'm not gaining any weight or having random people share my bed but I am getting a really good body buzz and relief from my brain for a few hours. Plus I was taking them previous to said circumstance soooo I am justifying the use now as a coping mechanism.

oh the rationality of justified behavior. I wonder if irrational behavior becomes rational once we understand that the behavior is rational and justify within the context of rational behavior.

[sneak_a_toke]

hmmmmm. interesting.

[reliefbyrant]

im sure you know i have no room to judge...