I'm not always the chattiest. I never listen to others convos. I generally have apathy towards personal business unless its directed towards me or about me. But when I hear others speak in a foreign language it draws out a nosey side of me that doesn't normally exsist. I wanna know what they're talking about. Are they talking about me? The person ( Read more... )

‎1st step to new Plan: Submerge self in more self-controlled creatures & release from all this controlled by instinct bullshit. I always let my kind side stop me from making messes but often it's necessary. But why would I rather loneliness? Bad company is better than no company. & even saying that, I don't truly believe in good or bad.

Neutral ( Read more... )

I go through strong feelings like old men go through coffee & the coffee goes through them.

An unexpected bond.
I'm anticipating...
I think this creature is using my feelings against me.

It feels great.

No longer day dreaming of the German ( Read more... )

Mind is in a jungle....chopping down precious trees.

Let's find away out of this monopoly. This rich man's world.
Should've been born in the concrete forest... where I could.... could....smash...slice...create.

I want security & a place to pretend I'm as happy as royalty.
A shield from a world I try to find hope in, but undoubtly recognize the bad that itches at my arms.
So I'm going to have to become stronger, more independent financially & emotionally.
I have to.
I sometimes don't think people understand or care for my dire need to have a base of my own, ( Read more... )

I haven't wrote in a while, & I guess that's ok since this is just for my purposes and not for blogging or enertainment's sake.

Lately I've been proccupied with work, fashion, friends, & worrying, but that doesn't mean in the admist of this that I have stopped feeling emotion.
Instead its being directed in another way. A much more at ease way that ( Read more... )

People are so bitter... I could never become a cannibal because I'd always spit them out.

I want to sleep. Just so I can feel the cold sheets on my skin. But I know, if I do that, I will loose the mind I've been claiming for so long. Forget the sunlight beams through my window. Forgive my past. Forget my sunburns & blisters. Forget that though I'm no stranger to adventure I have lost alot of trust for people. That I fear the future & ( Read more... )

Apprenticeships: I like the idea of them. I don't believe you can ever stop learning, stop creating, stop adapting... I live to understand why we live. But in the meantime, I need to create. Because art is creation & creation is the art of living.