so clint is off with his friends in p-county friends on the bikes, hahaha oh! i am such a dorkfish. this guy is wonderful. hahaha i can't believe i am dating a guy that was in the military. when i was in high school i promised myself i wouldn't date anyone that had anything to do with the military because of my dad. and here i am dating clint, who ( Read more... )

so what ever happened to that korean? yes, james that is you. i miss you, and i am wondering how you are, worried a bit too ( Read more... )

nervous, excited, scared, happy, all these emotions wrapped up into one little person, me. i'm so nervous. varian comes home today. i'm going to go pick him at the airport, and right now i am shaking. i have been waiting for this day for so long, and now that it is finally here, i question a lot. what i mean by that is, things are different, is he ( Read more... )

(at beve's) last night i had a dream. a really odd dream. it freaked me out. i was babysitting my cousin's kid (anthony) but in some way he became a girl... and he was peeing everywhere. i mean everywhere. she/he was getting sick, and crying so i tried to call (of all people) varian...but he wasn't answering the phone. in the dream, i knew he was ( Read more... )

.........and i'm blind! blind i tell you! ahhhhh! nooo! I PROMISE NEVER TO LOOK AROUND SOME-ONE'S DESK AREA EVER AGAIN! DAMN! okay so i am at a friends house and i was just hanging out at her computer when i find these nude (!!!) pictures of her. i found one by accident, became so sick, and for a brief moment went blind. okay not really blind, but ( Read more... )

alright so due to being bored, i have decided to take up new and exciting hobbies. i want to learn how to skateboard. i do. i think it would be fun. i think if i tried really hard i might just get the hang of it...maybe??? also i am going to start running once agian, well i have been doing that for a couple of days but i want to be running about ( Read more... )

so as i write this, i once again feel dreary. i should be in good spirits, yet my heart is still heavy. what the hell is going on? alright i guess it is karma. that or i need some time to be independant. so, life in general? ah. semi-good. i haven't heard of my raise, which means i am going to find a new job... anyone know of any jobs around here ( Read more... )

man work tonight was silly. i didn't really get a chance to talk to taasha, but i did talk a lot to jordan. oh, he is so fine. for some odd reason we started calling each other bugs bunny and rodger rabbit... me of course being rodger rabbit. i get more play that way...hehe. i work with andy's sister hannah, that is pretty cool, but i feel bad for ( Read more... )

so i put my gloves back on. took a few swings, and recieved a few punches. varian and i had a sort of fight... i guess you could say? i just wanted some reassurance, but the way i guess i talked wasn't how things were suppose to come out... as always. i was just looking for some way to know that i'm doing what is best for both of us, which is hard ( Read more... )

my love! oh my darling love! cary grant has e-mailed me, and once again, i am wisked back to the ol' movie days of high school. i miss james and manny so. haha, how i am sure we have all changed. james, if you read this, i am sorry i haven't e-mailed you back i'm having a promlem with my e-mail agian (ahhh)... how i miss you so. i want you to come ( Read more... )