it really only takes a little bit to remind me why i don't fuck around with some people or this gay ass livejournal shit.......sing a new tune and move the fuck on......

i need to learn to forgive the things of the past and learn to be ok with them.......and it's not just my past that i need to be ok with........

well it's high time that i did something about my situation......these days all i can dwell about is that i have in some way or another failed by trying to become somebody i wasn't or be apart of a world that i do not fit into. no matter what rhetoric i came up with to either defend myself or damn the naysayers, i could not find any comfort in ( Read more... )

it's becoming quite a bad habit to push people away......it's pretty fucked up even when i recognize the good that people offer me.........whether it be advice, or guidance, help,........or even tenderness........i haven't felt worth my salt.......but i'm tired of it.........i'm fucking tired of turning into my shell at the face of reality........i ( Read more... )

so i live in anaheim with my uncle and cousin and am NOT really into it.......my cousin is always really SYKED and amped over stuff......i can't really fake it that well cause i notice that i just don't care that much.......but flying kites at the beach was kind of fun........and i've been practicing more playing the harmonica and guitar more ( Read more... )

i really just want to put everything else aside and leave room for simple inspiration./........god i've wasted so much already and i don't feel on the path to anything grander or spectacular........the 2 problems that i encountered in school was not being able to write for an audience and not having focus/discipline for a project...........and now ( Read more... )

i might become a camera man for KYMA..........weird....

well full circl is right......i wanna break everything that is round ( Read more... )

"avast" he yells to his shipmates ( Read more... )

i am really freaked the fuck out ( Read more... )