Well i had a great time last night with jordan jp and dylan. I think i enjoyed the hangin out more than anything. So thanks all for making me have a good time that i've needed. Then there's the whole one day of school left..... okay i dont have many friends period (which im not complaining) because i prefer this though since i dont want fake ( Read more... )

i let myself fall into a lie ( Read more... )

Oh yeah taco bell baby! Well last night was INCREDIABLE!!!! Jordan and i went to the last NR concert for this month. Talk about awesome! I, as usual, was being not too intelligent and brought a permanent marker with me for ppl to sign...me lol. And jeff who was in one of the bands asked me what was on my arms so i had him sign me too. Which ended ( Read more... )

The simple answer has been in front of me... I tell all this, i guess it never struck home..... forget the petty shit and all my hopes, maybes, wish it could bes.... cause they're not real. I just want to be happy. The simplest things make me happy and the simplest things hurt me. So i'll dwell on my friends, music, my enjoyments...... the guy, my ( Read more... )

I'm dedicated to making a positive entry for once lol. Well i think i did well on by two finals today at least i hope so. I appreciate spencer helping me clear the air between us cause that was long over due. Well here's something negative the fuckin asshole that fuck with Dylan's car today. That was real bullshit. Hey Dylan i know one or two ( Read more... )

What can i say a million shitty thoughts and a million contridicting emotions. I saw my mom tonight at the hospital. She had a son Caleb John 8 pounds 9 ounces 22 inches. I have no feelings about that. Yet again i was an outsider in my own "family". The treated Jordan cooly which really PISSED me off. My sister was yet AGAIN a bitch. Then there's 3 ( Read more... )

I can trust no one. For no one is real. How can you choose sides, when both are lying? I'm sick of every single person I've met or the lives ive been forced into. All they bring is deceit, lies, minipulation, and pain. The ever soul consuming pain. How can i not be used though? For i am a monster myself. Like everyone in my life i will bring ( Read more... )

Yes just another day being Cassandra... that tells you how it went. God I know it's lame and im repeating myself, but only nine school days left... then im finished. No graduating with my friends, no more making fun of this donkey ball sucking school.... it's been bringing me down. But hey what's new right???? This time of year people work up the ( Read more... )

eye remember, suffering, eye, remember... feeling the sting of childhood and injections, holy bruises, sweet infections, soaked in a stew, like srowning cockroaches, whose only... crime was the greed of inherent hunger, u know where eye'm fragile, u know how to kill........ kill all fall away all fall today PAIN!! pain. eye can't keep this rage in ( Read more... )

Beautiful huh? I don't know I make myself this way I think sometimes. I just can't fathom why everyone care's so much about the little stupid things. I mean I care about little things but in a sentimental way. The positive way. I've been called anything from immature to a cold hearted bitch. Maybe I do have feeling and I've been lying. Where would ( Read more... )