Comments | holycaribou: "Yeah, well..."

holycaribou

"Yeah, well..."

Apr 28, 2005 00:32

Controlling your own emotions is hard. There is no "appropriate" time to try and balance the playing field after an audition. I just have to stand there and let peoples comments pick at me - I respond by smiling and going on with the conversation. Has anyone else been in this situation? I feel like there's no one I can talk to about it, no one ( Read more... )

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amybean04 April 28 2005, 14:02:36 UTC

It's like all-state: even though you got first chair trumpet in orchestra doens't mean there isn't someone out there that could possibly be at the same level, one that just didn't try out or bombed one part of the tape.

gosh chris...thats the stupidest thing i've ever heard. CLEARLY, im the BEST flutist in the ENTIRE state of nebraska, and theres no way there could EVER be anyone out there that was as good as me. luck or chance had NOTHING to do with me being first chair twice. DUH!!!!!

(sarcasm)

holycaribou April 28 2005, 18:43:42 UTC

=O I'm sorry, I didn't even have you in mind when I wrote that. I was thinking about the trumpet players last year that sucked horribly and how much Jaime talked about it.

satanicsheep April 28 2005, 16:57:43 UTC

"Wow, Chris is still writing about it"

You read my mind. Do you remember sophomore year of high school when I got into TWO car accidents in the same year? I don't know if this helps you in any way, but I was tormented by EVERYONE about how "stupid you have to be get in two accidents in a year". Even the people that I considered my friends picked on me about it. Now, if I had my way, those people would have died, but that obviously didn't happen, so I just had to go on taking their abuse.

What I'm trying to say is that I know what you're going through. There hasn't been one audition in the world that I've been successful in. Everything I've achieved you've achieved, plus more (drum major, all-state, UNL music major). If people's comments bother you, call them on it. Just tell them, "Hey, you know what, I'd prefer we NOT talk about how good he/she is." If nothing else, it'll get them to shut up and walk away.

Gotta give me points for trying.

holycaribou April 28 2005, 18:42:21 UTC

Actually, that's really good advice.

hitzjazzcat April 28 2005, 23:54:42 UTC

I know how it feels... I've been last chair in symphonic band for two semesters in a row after playing 2nd part for three semesters. I know that I'm better and more musically mature (on my trumpet) than more than a few people ahead of me. I guess there's just something about my last two auditions... I don't know. It almost made me feel rejected, not to mention embarassed... like they just took me because they had to because I'm a music major. Fortunately, Darryl always knows what to say in these types of situations. We had a long talk today during my lesson. When he was a trumpet graduate student he got second to last chair after his audition. He went through two years of finding his sound, and then a dog tore up his upper lip and he had to train all over again. He failed keyboarding. He failed theory twice. But now look where he is. He's a nationally known and respected trumpet player that has a tenured position at a university. Personally, I don't know of a better player than Darryl ( ... )