i see it
i hear it
i smell it
and i want it
badly
but when i go to grab it, it slides through my fingers. i cant feel it.
am i just not grasping it
or does it not exist?
is it all in my mind?
an illusion?
i hope not
i pray not
yet i wonder

senior year can kiss my ass. it sucks. i hate it. nothing is going right. and im trying hard to look at it like "if i get fucked at least i get kissed". im getting fucked over completly, but where is my kiss?

hey... something new. i got in a car wreck yesterday and it wasnt my fault. i stoped at a light and the person behind me rear ended me. he had to have been going at least 45 to do the damage he did. (the speed limit was 30). but he shaddered my back window. the only thing that stopped shards of glass from flying in the back of me and my brothers ( Read more... )

i just caught my moms wood floors on fire. i fixed it. but there is a burned spot on the floor. mom says im grounded from the vaccum (i was vaccuming when i did it). all i can say is "oh the horror" with extreme sarcasm. mom is ok... dad is gunna kill me.

katy

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you know... i was thinking about it, and my school year was kinda diffrent this year. lets see... in videotech, i learned how to be a director and got movies screwed over for me. now all i do when i watch movies is look for headroom and placment. sometimes composition errors. it has to be a real good movie for me not to screw it up for myself. then ( Read more... )

so. its officially the first day of summer and im already bored shitless. way to go. i finally got to talk to amanda yesterday. for an hour and a half. i was happy. i miss that girl like no other. but yeah. on another note, my dad came home from work last night and appologized. he felt really bad. i pulled the guilt trip and made it worse, but we ( Read more... )

OH i forgot to mention i get to direct my own play next year!!!! i got a twilight zone and i have seniors and i preform first. MINE IS THE FIRST SHOW TO GO UP ALL YEAR!!!! so all you seniors please audition... even if you dont act... please. i need you despretly. ill be a good director, just if you have done a show (just not main stage (tz and 24 ( Read more... )

yes well. show went well. i really liked teching ut got really depressed when the show was going on cause i wanted to be on stage. i really hope i get to direct next year. interview went well. if i get a show everyone should audition. i need a nap. so im bored. goin to umarmy. im excited. summer almost here. also excited about that. i like lemonade ( Read more... )