I have a job and am going to school, while John is stuck with no job and stressing out and I stress out over him, he then in turn stresses out . ...... oh wow, I open LJ to bitch about how John is stressing me out then low and behold , a saved draft file that begins with stressing out about John. Seriously is this a sign or am I that dense? It is ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed. Nothing is going right, everything seems to be going wrong. I am going so wrong, so wrong ( Read more... )

Usually, i post on livejournal depressing thoughts or odd imaginations of my demise. but not this post. in this post i celebrate all i have done and what i have yet to do. i treasure that spark of creativity that conjures up every so now and again. for i have notice, in the course of the mundane and structured life, creativity is weakened, as the ( Read more... )

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I don't know how it happened, but at the end of an hour long conversation with Mikey, i ended up crying and shouting at him how i hated him. How i hated him, how i wished i never dated him, how i wish i never had sex with him and how i wish i never met him. i wanted to delete him from my phone and never speak to him again. ... but then that ego in ( Read more... )

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

I find it amazing the type of life i lead and the degree i put in my abilities to survive. I feel indestructable, youthful with energy that will trimph over others. the past two nights i have gone to complete strangers' houses without knowing them for longer then 2 hours. to top if off, there's usually always drugs involve. I feel very little, or ( Read more... )

In the Chinese New Year, It is year of the Dog. A time to be loyal. Homeless will be extremely loyal, but first to herself. She must train herself well, take care of her mind and body and believe that no one will do it for her ( Read more... )

I'm slightly procrastinating nao. Have to study for the last exam. It's weird, i'm worried, but not, like i already know the outcome. That and math is so uninteresting at 1:50 am. But i will get to it. I will practice that self discipline ( Read more... )