wow. its been a REALLY long time. its kinda scary. i just got bored and decided to put something in the old livejournal. nothing has really changed. ok so maybe im a liar. i got a better job, i HAD a girlfriend. but she turned into a jealous psycho overacting bitch. but hey what can ya do? avoid her at all cost thats what. i still pretty much have ( Read more... )

should have known better. i really should have. let my guard down and guess what happens. shit blows up in my face. im so disappointed in myself. of all the things i could possible let happen. of all the things i could possibly do. i hate it. i hate everything. its getting so bad to where im starting to hate inaminate objects. things i look at ( Read more... )

this weekend is going to be awesome. leaving tomorrow morning to go to chattanooga with jessica. its gonna be great. we are only gonna be gone for 2 days. we're coming back sunday night. but its still away from here. i need to get away so bad. and ive been waiting so long to get out of this damn town. i know im not gonna be gone long but still. and ( Read more... )

well for those of you who havent heard, i wrecked my car. about 2 weeks ago. and im pretty sure its totaled. so on top of everything else i have to deal with that. why is life throwing so much at me at once. i dont know how much more i can take. its getting so bad that i just want to move away and start over. yes that would take turning my back on ( Read more... )

things just keep getting worse. im so stressed out that i have had a headache for 2 straight days. it wont go away. theres no real way to describe the mess im in. i never wanted to be here. i just wanna forget everything. everything i have ever done. every mistake i have ever made. i dont wanna do this anymore. they say it can always be worse. i ( Read more... )

everyone keeps asking me if im ok. i just say yes. i just say that i have gotten over it. i just say that its something that i had to deal with, everything happens for a reason. but everytime someone asks me if im ok they make me think about why im so upset in the first place. when im trying so hard to get it out of my mind. but i cant. it makes me ( Read more... )

something really great finally happens to me and i fucked it up. thats all i am, a big fuck up. i dont think i have ever been this down. i cant sleep. i dont feel like eating. i dont feel like doing anything anymore. i just wish i would slip into a coma for a few years. what are you supposed to do when you lose what you care about most? what are ( Read more... )

we all know that life has its ups and downs. and we all know that the majority of people are mindless idiots. but its just something we have to deal with EVERY SINGLE DAY OF OUR LIVES!! we get so used to it that we dont even notice it anymore. we dont even think twice about it. after you go so long without anything really great happening to you, ( Read more... )

i hate judgemental people. you finally find something that makes you really happy and all someone can do is be judgemental. they have to judge someone else just because they look different or dress different. those same people need to get their own life in order before making stupid ass mistakes like that. stupid ass people make me sick to my ( Read more... )

tonight was a good night. other than when i wanted to beat the fuck out of one of the managers. i just wanted to hit the skinny little dick eating bastard right in the fucking mouth. but other than that the night was pretty damn good. i got a feeling the whole weekend is gonna be pretty decent. i hope it turns out that way ( Read more... )