I have just had the worst day of my life.  I swear to God.  Some of the people I thought were my best friends won't talk to me, they hate me.  Amber is moving away.  I don't mean to whine, but I honestly do feel so alone.  Yes, I am a self-centered bitch.  I just want Amber to be happy....But I love her so much.  Plus I also lost my notebook....The ( Read more... )

Well today I stayed home sick again....I just got back from my morning cancer stick....I only had half though because I really am trying to cut back....Anyway, yesterday we hung out at the park all day after school, which was pretty awesome, because Amber was there the whole time....I don't know if she's taking advantage of my feelings, but hey, ( Read more... )

Last night I slept over at Kylie's house, although she had work today from eight to four.  We talked for hours outside, justs about everything.  I never knew I was capable of telling a person so much.  While we were talking, it made me realize how fucked up the world and society is.  I know talking is supposed to help your mood, that's why they ( Read more... )

Time to slit my veins and spill their secrets.  First of all, I just realized how this person and I are so alike, yet we are completely different.  I will admit she is a far better person than I can ever hope of being, and I am apologizing for my animosity towards her, although she will never read this.  She probably does not remember I exist.  The ( Read more... )

Today I stayed home from school.  It would sound like a great time to you, wouldn't it?  All day my thoughts pressed against my skull as i tried to keep them as far back as possible.  Currently I am attempting to do the same thing.  I just don't understand anyone at the moment.  It is aggravating me.  I am not sure thought why I cannot even ( Read more... )

All righty then....The governmental conspiracy which is based solely on politics (which everyone so affectionately calls "school,") is creeping closer.  Which completely fucks up my whole summer.  The bastards.  Anyway, not much has happened.  Dying my hair is pretty much the highlight of my summer, which is pretty pathetic.  Oh, and sitting at ( Read more... )

Well I just got home about a half hour ago; I've been in West Bend and Horicon basically the whole summer.  I am most likely going to Living Word, just so I can see Becky and Ben.  I will probably get expelled, but who cares?  I got my nose screw, so soon I am gonna pierce my nose....That'll be kick ass.  My hair is still pink, but it's fading, ( Read more... )

I miss my Becky!  Okay, so I spent the weekend in West Bend with her....Met the cutest guy....Who I want now....And I quit smoking....And all drugs....I'm gonna be a square again!  Yay!  Got a new book called Thirst....Got one of the older Thrice CDs which is awesome....I frolicked with Kylie across the street from her apartment, got scared ( Read more... )

Well, scratch that object of my affection thing....I give up on men and women alike.  I quit.  Anyway, I really want a camera, so I can bring my distorted fantasies to life....I am suicidal and depressed again....And I am still smoking....So I really need to quit, I am such a weak motherfucker....Someone, save yourself from me....Kill me....

I have been snubbed for Jenny and Spanish.  That's a great feeling.  Anyway, I just got home maybe ten or twenty minutes ago from the public exam at church.  It actually went pretty well.  I also saw the new object of my misguided affection.  My god he was hot.