i'm so fucking sick of paul coming over and being a dick. my god, you'd think aqfter everything he could be fucking civil. i hate that i made friends w/ the guy i was sleeping w/'s friends. it makes everything so fucking complicated. he's friends w/ my roomate, does he expect not to see me when hes there. my god and they are so mean to him it ( Read more... )

the other day i talked to rob for a long time, i'm not even sure why, but it was a pretty good convo. the next day paul and i broke up (just irony) right now guess where he is.. at my fucking apt i left when he came but i have nothing to do so right now i'm at school pretending to look up loans. wtf! i don't know why he's there and its pissin me ( Read more... )

lets see, stayed at my parents last night they all fought and stuff, but hey thats normal ( Read more... )

it really amazes me how stupid some girls can be. how the fuck do they go back to the same guy that has fucked them over so many times? whatever, i am never going to be that girl that takes a guy back b/c i don't want to be alone or think that he can change or b/c i think that there is actually some love. fuck that! i am a strong woman..unlike ( Read more... )

ugh! i totally feel myself turning into rob and it makes me sick! the things i think and feel are so wrong. lastnight i was thinking abt him all nostlgicly my stupid ass almost called him i was going nuts! today, just a few mins ago i was w/ paul and i swear i was sick. i don't know what the fuck is up. he is so awesome and there are so many ( Read more... )

lets see after class on thursday we went to this mall in glens falls and watched a movie b/c ti sucks so much ass theres none here ( Read more... )

i miss ada so much, i just talked to her the other day for the first time in what feels like ages. it amazes me how alike we are, but that might just be from all the time we spent together. it's weired, in new york i felt too old and dried up, but here i really feel seventeen again. i don't know what it is, maybe it's b/c i'm back in school or w ( Read more... )

heres my week so far ( Read more... )

let me just start w/ saying wow ( Read more... )

hah i just got my midterm grades and i'm pretty damn happy i have a 3.6 which is pretty good considering i dont do any reading and just eat pizza, drink beer (although i introduced them to good 'ole vodka), party and chill w/ paul having oral sex in the forest. its amazing, i quilfiy for honers, never missed a day at work. i'm pretty damn proud ( Read more... )