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[honestxlove]

LIST OF PEOPLE I HAVE LOST:
-Marsa
-Ish
-Kara
-Davegunn.

It may not seem like a long list, but they are my friends. They seem to be losing hope in me. All except Dave, he is the only one who actually still talks to me. All in all, yes I smoke. No i don't regret it. Yes I will keep doing it. No i don't care about what it's doing to me. Yes, I know I

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[zeroenthusiasm]

You haven't lost me. You haven't made an effort to really talk to me or make plans with me. It's saddening. I'm just so used to this crap, that I automatically assumed you were done with me, because pot and stupidity is awesome.

And I have lost hope in you, but I'm not going to stop talking to you. That'd be stupid. I just don't expect to be seeing you around as often, that's all.

For the record, you never even lied to me. You just never told me. I knew, but I was just always hoping you'd come out and tell me yourself that you had broke edge and started smoking. But, oh, well.

"IF I DON'T CARE ABOUT MYSELF EITHER SHOULD YOU." That is a stupid mantra, Steph. That's basically saying, "fuck you," to the people who care about you, and, "I love you," to the friends you have that will support you doing something fucking stupid to yourself.

[anonymous]

hey steph, this is Gill. I meant to tell you this in Art, and I dont know if this means much coming from me since we aren't all that close, but I do care about you and respect you, despite whatever descion you've made. You live your life the way you want, and even though people don't like it, it's still your descion and your life and in some people's opinions, your own mistake. But despite all that you're a good person and you're smart.

I respect you Steph. I really do. =]

[honestxlove]

Thank you Gill.