Calling in a time of need. You don't see that you helped me. Moving on and pass the glass, I should of known this couldn't last. Simple is what I crave, complicated is all I see. Put me down do you feel better now? I hope you can handle this. I walk alone. I've been the only one. Remember when I was the only one you had. Don't be foolish in ( Read more... )

Writing. I haven't wrote in this place for what seems forever. Some days you just have to go. And let go to. I miss so many people. And I still feel lonely from time to time. I remember things almost to clear. But I've let them go. Now they are harder to remember but then again i'm not trying to remember them either. The past is all that has been. ( Read more... )

Bring forth these play writes send them far from your heart. the art of letting go. Open your life. sing like the wind breeth like the trees Pondering only confuses thee. Clean out the closet. it's all gotta go harbor this no more. Free leave it far from here did you know I can't see past what's already here you know I don't think i'll miss it i ( Read more... )

I fell asleep, I didn't mean to. I just kind of fell, hard and fast. everything I saw was fuzzy. a fog, nothing seeming real, andalways out of reach. Silently screaming in black rain. Spinning and spining yet not even dizzy. Not even feeling alive just watching your life pass by. Feeling it take you away. So long so far you can't picture the day ( Read more... )

Wood chips, the left side of the tree, mirror glances, cigerettes in the rain, that one picture we took, Planning to leave "Who's coming with me?" The first shower, wisdom teeth, I think I just split my pants quick hold my shirt. Telling stories to bad it's true, take me way? I wish you would. BEKIE!!! Food court. A great team, Are you two dating? ( Read more... )

Wondering what was done. This game that children play seems so pettey and yet the battle has won. Hardenedto the verycore. Doesn't matter anymore. Does this eat at you more. Than the time spent with me between my knees. You wish. you wish. It would of been diffrent what did you expect? Rainbow color lie all spanded out in guilt ( Read more... )

I got my tattoo finished today I feel like my arm went through a meat grinder. It sucks I have to hold my arm up if I set it on anything it fucking hurts...but at least it will only hurt for a little while. And I have a really kick ass arm he he he I win... Thanks to Jermey At Bleeding Heart.

Spent most of the morning fighting with my daughter over her presents she got for christmas. It sounded something like "IT'S MY TURN!" That went on for about two hours before I desided I should just go get my own...So what is this fabous present. Magnets yes Magnets. (Magnetix by RoseArt) Just goes to show you that it doesn't take much to distract ( Read more... )

A few nights ago I embrarressed myself to prove the truth. I didn't even know how embarressed I was until I thought back on what had happened. there is a guy that wants to date me more than anyone ever has. And I keep telling him that there is certian things in my life that I need to clean up before I invite someone else in. I don't think he ( Read more... )

Christmas. What does it even mean anymore. It seems to have lost its face value. When I wa a child everything made since the holidays had a meaning. Now they are just a reminder of what I don't have what I can't have and what I wish I could giive. So this year I tried to make is as magical as posible for my little one ( Read more... )