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Spiritual Learning and Economic Dreams
I am writing another paper last minute and am (again) motivated to write a journal entry instead. They are so much more fun and therapeutic. A homeless man I always see asked me for a quarter and I automatically said "no". I didn't mean to say it and I surely could spare a quarter and I wanted to give him one, but I always feel in a hurry. I am so ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: A Little Recognition, Please?
It's not a talent necessarily. I have compassion for people. It doesn't seem like much, but I don't feel like a talented person and it is rare to find, I think. I just wish some one else would see this in me. -
Old Thoughts of Last Year
The only time I was happy with my weight seems like ages ago now. I
think I was 95 to 105 lbs. Now I'm 138 or somewhere around there. Even
when I was 114 I was severely unhappy with myself. There are journal
entries I have where I wrote about how fat I felt even though people
used to think I was anorexic. I never was. There were many times when
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Yearning to Chuck Out the Burden
Why do I get this way? So jealous or maybe it's a backlash of feelings from being offended. How could she let this new guy take up all her time? I feel so guilty for not wanting to see her. I want to feel my pain alone so I don't have to hide it. I'm sick of hiding it. I thought I would have lost inches off my waist by now, but I seem bigger ( Read more... ) -
sos
so tired. Was going to vent feelings, but now I don't know. Feeling very fat and unhealthy. Life defeats me. Overwhelmed. Need help. -
Purifying Adversities
I felt that it was important to write now at 11:00 at night. Maybe it's because I had a bad day. First I did pretty bad on my first singing test for voice class and I wanted so much to be punished for my mistakes. It's in my nature to feel that I should suffer for every wrong thing. Then I watched a special on tv tonight. It was aboout Oprah' ( Read more... ) -
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Yesterday was one of the most important days of my life, maybe. I directed the class through two skits. The first time with real equipment and everything! I told them if they weren't quiet I would have their ass! It was fun although the actors were pretty bad that day so it wasn't as good as "the View" with the gay guys. I played with the ( Read more... ) -
This test is pretty accurate
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||| 50% Stability |||||||||| 36% Orderliness |||||||||||||| 53% Accommodation |||||||||||| 50% Interdependence |||||||||| 36% Intellectual |||||||||||||| 56% Mystical |||||||||| 36% Artistic |||||||||||||||| 63% Religious |||||||||||||||| 63% Hedonism |||| 16% ( Read more... ) -
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You Are 21 Years Old
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Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe ( Read more... ) -
Shadows
I think for most of my life I've been in someone else's shadow. I tell this to most people I know. There is almost always someone in my life who I am being compared to. They see that person when they see me. That someone is always seeming "better" somehow. I don't think people really see me when I'm with this person. I am just a shadow, a tag ( Read more... )