I give up! I', getting really tired of always trying to please everybody. I havent slept well in days. I almost felt like colapsing the other day. I felt very faint. I'm too stressed out. My mom is at it again with the liquer. I have to work Christmas. The safe is short 800 dollars because of me, so if they dont find it I may be fired. Im madly in ( Read more... )

I did most of my christmas shopping today. Im completely broke now... but I guess it's all for a good cause. I got myself a few cool things too. That might not be so good, but oh well. I think I did good with my dads gift. I amaze myself. I made spaghetti right now. I must say.. it rocked! I should be a chef. Yeah bitch. I'm gonna open up a ( Read more... )

So, uh yeah.... I'm really tired. Been working my ass of all week. I don't like getting up at 4 in the morning. Makes me way too crouchy and tired. Plus, my head hurts really bad. So, I was thinking about gettin myself a job at Victoria's Secret. I don't know.. call me crazy, but I think it'd be cool. Of course, it wont be for a while. I just got ( Read more... )

There are things I'm discovering about life that don't exactly make me feel that great. Growing up sucks. Sometimes, I wish I could just go back to being a kid. Then again, there are lots of things I could do now that I couldn't when I was a kid. Like reach the sink to brush my teeth. I think what the worst thing about growing up is sex. So many ( Read more... )

Did that even make sense? I don't know. I'm too tired to care. I talked to my mom over the weekend about her drinking. She can't seem to let it go. Which I understand. Thats why it's called an addiction. But it just hurts. She makes promises that she never keeps. I guess a lot of people do that. I'm gonna get her help of some kind..... Today I ( Read more... )

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I womder if anybody would care if I just left. I wouldn't tell anyone, I would just disappear. I bet no one would notice.

I went and spent the night at my grandparents houase the other night. It was fun. Mymom bought me a huge air mattress, which was loads of fun! Much better than sleeping on the floor. I watched Endless Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Made me sad. And made me miss my boyfriend. I also watched Gothika. Trippy flick. I think I'm going on sunday to see ( Read more... )

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Oh me oh my... what a week its been. Last night, I couldn't believe it. I was talking to Kevin, hung up the phone with him, and imeadiately just passed out. I think I'm way too exaushsted. Work is a pain in the ass. But what can I say? I'll put up with it if it means I'll have money. The other day Trevor came in the store. He had a camera that ( Read more... )