I had a lovely weekend. I always do when he's around. :-)

Cedric is dating Michelle? What in Gods name is going on in this world? I REALLY hope its just a facebook joke...if it is, Im not amused.

It feels like spring out there. Its the most beautiful day Santa Cruz has seen in forever. Everything smells all springy and the trees are blooming and its gorgeous out there. Just the thought of it makes me so happy inside that it almost hurts because I feel like I cant share it with anyone.

Sometimes you just get confused...

Please excuse the last few posts...I had a nervous breakdown on Wednesday night and have been feeling pretty shitty since then. I'm a little better now...at least it stopped raining.

Fuck shitty moods and all the shit that comes with it. Fuck a lot of stuff lately. Fuck. I want to have friends that I can get shitfaced with. I want to have a fucking life. I want to make people jealous and I want to be better looking than I am. I want to be someone else.

Fuck gender and sexual identity development psychology. Fuck it, fuck it, fuck it with a big stick.

I'm so glad this week is over. It hasnt really been hard at all, but its been so tiring. Ive literally fallen asleep at work and on the bus home these past two days. I'm so tired and I dont know why...also, my balance is off...I really hope there isnt something wrong with me.

My tattoo itches.

I had another amazing weekend in Santa Barbara. A lot of sitting around, a lot of movies, a lot of good food, and quite a bit of time that you dont get to know about ( Read more... )