I am trying this time with Jason. Things seem to be better. We are spending more time together and that was one thing we really needed. However, everytime I take one step forward I take what seems to be 1-2 steps back. It's Jeff. I want him, always have and probably always will. How am I ever going to get past the past? My Codependency Group is ( Read more... )

I am bitter towards Jeff. He dropped off my resume today for me and i texted him and said "thanks and to have a good weekend." He texted back "thanks and you too." I responded with "go fuck yourself." I am so hurt and upset for what he has done to me that I can bearly function without crying throughout the day. I am hurt that I let him in when I ( Read more... )

I have been really down the last few days. I am just depressed that once again Jeff has turned it all around and all of a sudden wants nothing to do with me. I don't know what happen bc he doesn't care enough to let me know. All he says is that it is not what I think referring to me seeing that car in his driveway. He physically makes me crazy. One ( Read more... )

I have to remain confident that the right guy will come along and that I made the choice not to be with Jason or Jeff not the other way around. I am just afraid bc I am alone and that is unfamilar to me. I need to experience it, be aware of it, and deal with the feelings. I need to surround myself with friends and family. Charlie's birthday is ( Read more... )

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To be pregnant without the guy who is suppose to be there- there, is pretty difficult. After out last fight last Monday I realized that it was over, that he wasn't going to change his mind and become this outstanding guy. He is who he is, a selfish man! So, I am stuck here trying to figure out how I will manage to pay for everything and take care ( Read more... )

I got the house. I am so anxious. Jeff and I are in another fight and he was going to let me use his truck and loan me the money. I hate that we are fighting. I have so much to do with the house- clean it, mow the yard and weed eat the front and move all the stuff in. Uggg- this was something I felt like we were doing together. I mean she thinking ( Read more... )