It's crazy..every time I seem to set foot on livejournal to update.. it's like I've done a complete 180 with my life. I saw Brenda today.. talked to her for a while.. and realized that I've done a lot of growing up. Two years ago, the situation I was just in wouldve been a HUGE drama fest and I would've welcomed those red flags with open arms and ( Read more... )

Wow.. I just realized how much I've changed. It's incredible.

I like it. :)

So.. I realized something the other day ( Read more... )

I don't know what you want to hear, what you want me to do, what you want me to feel.. because it's already all there.. the guilt, the pain, the reality of everything. You have a right to be upset and angry.. but don't you get it? It's over with, it's done. You won. There wasn't even anything to win but you did it. Why waste your feelings of anger ( Read more... )

so I feel like shit right now but ima do a little mini update anyways.. and also copy n paste a little "journal entry" from somewhere else as well. enjoy bud ( Read more... )

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be,
For my unconquerable soul,
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced or cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance.
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears.
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace ( Read more... )

In a romantic fashion
I will experiment with my fear right before her eyes
And every smile that's unveiled will be soaked
in my nervous charm

And then I'll say,
"Is everything alright?
There's been a few things I've been meaning
to let go of tonight"
And she will say,
"Everything's just fine
So you can put an end to your worrying mind"
And then our ( Read more... )

So I'm going to make a real update because I'm a punk and haven't done it in FOREVER and a day ( Read more... )

pretty much says it all..


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"if ive learned one thing in the past year, its that you cant live in your memories. you cant stop time. you grow up, you grow apart. it happens, and you cant change that."

it's quotes like that ^^ that make my stomach flip on the inside. not the good kind of flip either. some days, i wish i COULD just live in my memories. life would be so much ( Read more... )