if only i could figure out the cause of this neurosis
this psychosis
this blatant disreguard for sanity at times

"Where have I been all your life?
Sitting on fences, a novocaine for all the senses.
Another year will pass us by.
Making sense of nothing, in defense of something.
I laughed too late and dug myself into a grave."

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well even if i dont graduate, at least stephanie is my roomate.

"I wish I could hold you," she continued, bitterly, "till we were both dead! I shouldnt care what you suffered. I care nothing for your sufferings. Why shouldnt you suffer? I do! Will you forget me? Will you be happy when I am in the earth? Will you say twenty years hence, 'Thats the grave of Catherine Earnshaw. I loved her long ago, and was ( Read more... )

in the airport about to get on the plane to breathing easier
a jetstream of beetoven and relaxation
to warm earth and clear water
putting the glow back into my skin
i will be rejuvinated

last night i dreamt that spiders came out of my mouth
and i woke up choking on a web of misconceptions

sometimes i think ive forgotten what its like to share
so used to isolation and living without obligation to another
almost too exhausted even look

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