I hate this feeling. its growing up my throw, i think I feel sick. i had this feeling before.. right before sam broke up with me. the only difference this time is there is nobody that can break up with me. Hm.. odd ( Read more... )

Im.. speechless. I had one thing , or thought I had one good thing, going for me. I was wrong. How surprising! riiiiiight. I really like brendan.. I was willing putting up with shit from people before we were even dating ( cause ya i was stupid enough to think it would get to that) God I can't believe I was so stupid. LIke really who was I kidding ( Read more... )

"I can't take my eyes off of you" the only line to this song i just heard.. one line over and over again, usually would annoy me to death but with the music behind it, it was the prettiest song i've heard in a long while. Damien Rice he has a very nice voice. Surprisingly I like his stuff alot. Its very.. raw. That doesn't make it sound nice but he ( Read more... )

this entry has absolutely nothing to do with pop. I Just found a ice cold pop sitting on the table so i though i'd make that the topic. Actually I don't believe that my topic has ever really had anything to do with what im writing about. So Im pretty sick. I keep losing my voice and I can't stop coughing. And when I cough i lose a little piece of ( Read more... )

I danced ballet today. I know its early but I guess I'm an early bird. I woke up heard this song that just made me want to dance. So I rolled up my carpet at about 8:30, put on my point shoes and danced. I miss ballet. I miss dancing for something like dancline or show choir. I love to dance. yep. Definitely. Makes me very happy. So good news on ( Read more... )

keep hope. Im trying my best to be optimistic. Really am. but the situation continues to worsen. I dont know if its really going to happen but my mom kicked my dad out. who knows though. we all know how that goes. it never follows through. all I want is to go to college. So i wont be here. So i can get a good education a good job and get far away ( Read more... )

This is it. I knew I was right. I knew I wouldn't ever escape this fucking town. I knew it and yet somehow i let myself believe that id be going to college like everyone else. I dont know why or how. Im so stupid. Fuck it. fuck everything. Its just one thing after another. I'm doomed to die a miserable life.

hey dad... fuck you.

If some one broke your trust would you take them back? Say if you did take them back and they broke it again would you take them back after that. Surely you wouldn't. Unless you are out for saint hood or something or maybe if your just really stupid and forgiving. Honestly I don't think I would take them back if they did it twice. I couldn't unless ( Read more... )

Hmm... right. Edinboro is nice I like it alot I can't wait to go to school. Get as far away from here as I can.I want to write but its like there is so much going on and.. yet I have no idea what to say. BLAH!

we're never gonna get it right.

So.. my conclusion on life is.. I suck.