BAND CAMP! i'll be gone sunday through friday. BAND CAMP!

so, since i'm bored, and there's things that i need to let out. i'm going to do the thing that stacey does ( Read more... )

today was better. things were starting to look up. let's hope they stay that way....

yesterday was absolute hell. unless all my friends would've died yesterday, it couldn't have gotten worse. if the physical stress wasn't hard enough, i had to have all that mental shit going on at the same time. which was more the reason for my passing out than the heat. i don't know what to do with myself. things just seem to be getting worse ( Read more... )

well, vaca was fun, but now i'm home and in deep depression for god only knows what reason. i mean i know why, but i can't put it into words. it's just one of those feelings things. i really wish i could put it on paper or something, but i can't. i got the strogenst urge to self injure yesterday. i started looking at icons with si on them. i ( Read more... )

what am i doing?!

i've found her. i know who i want to spend the rest of my life with. she's perfect. she's beautiful. she makes me smile. i get butterflies when she touches me. i've found the one.

something i wrote a year ago.

so, jacob's life officially sucks. 1) i'm single. 2) confused so much my brain literally hurts sometimes. 3) unemployed, and i was going to go job hunting today, but no, i can't, becuase i have to babysit the kids and i'm still fucking sick. 4) i'm still fucking sick. 5) i look like a derranged monkey all the time, but more now because i can't ( Read more... )

i've got idea titles for my book of poetry. they are as follows:

Scars
Warning
Mood or Mood Ring
Tears
Cracks
Blood
Darkness
Masquerade
Bitter~Sweet
Cold Prickly~Warm Fuzzy
Eyelash
Dust
Worth
Mirror
Normal
Fade
Words
Soul
Release
Serenity
Quench
Truth

thoughts? comments? HELP! PLEASE!

well, this update comes a couple days late, but i have an unofficial restraining order against my boyfriend. his parents are forbidding him to even talk to me. and if i try to contact him at all, they're going to call the police to arrest me and try me on sexual harrassment charges. so, i'm guessing i'm single again? idk...