what will i do without her?

so i've been in this sorta nostalgic/angry/depressive mood for the past few days. and there's so much stuff attributing to this mood ( Read more... )

this shouldn't be happening. i should be very happy or at least content with what i have in life. but i'm not. i thought i could control this. these feelings, but i guess i was wrong. i can't get over either one of them. one of them is moving on with life and forgetting about me, and the other one has moved on but still holds onto us. i don' ( Read more... )

oh dear, things just keep getting better then shittier.

please God, keep her safe and let her be okay

i'll never be happy. end of story. i want too much. i have plenty, more than plenty. but I always want more. i'm never happy with what i have. i give so little, but expect so much back ( Read more... )

ugh, i just can't take this anymore. i know that i don't have it as bad off as most people, but i'm still not happy. i know i won't ever be fully and completely happy, but for what i've gone through and my therapy and my friends i'm still not where i wanna be. i'm thinking that that's mostly my own fault though. to be honest, i'm scared to get ( Read more... )

Saturday 5: house sit all day. call the cell! it's been found ( Read more... )

so, things are progressing with kirstin. progessing very nicely. ;) i've never wanted anyone more than i've wanted her rite now. i love her so much.

i'm home from BAND CAMP! which is sorta exciting and sorta depressing all at the same time. i mean it's good to be home and all cause i get me bed back and my shower and food whenever i want and tv and computer, but i had so much fun and i don't really feel "home" at my own house and it was this exact time last year that my depression hit me like ( Read more... )