Break Up, Break Down

[hopeless_addict]

I wake up early. All is quiet except for fear, fear like a loud barking dog straining at his leash. Sharply absent are the soft rhythm of his breath, the warmth of his body, the quiet strength of his sleeping embrace. There will be many mornings like this. I will have to get used to sleeping alone, and waking up without extracting myself from his

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[poptartheart]

Yep.

[peacelovehappy]

oh I'm sorry honey, that's so rough. I know it doesn't really help, but the house will be less empty soon, I'm coming back to california the day after tomorrow! I'm sending you love and hugs from across the country

[hopeless_addict]

It'll help to have you home. I need someone around in the morning. You and Marc will be complementary to the two parts of my insomnia because Marc will stay up with me at night and you'll be up in the morning.

[peacelovehappy]

haha ok. yeah, I'm flying into SF on wednesday, and then either taking lots of public transit back to santa cruz or staying with friends in oakland until friday or saturday when I can get a ride... probably gonna go with the bart/caltrain/17 plan in which case I'll see you in less than 2 days!

[creativecstasy]

I know the feeling, I hate that feeling, and I'm sorry you're going through it. If our work schedules coincide, maybe we can hang out this week and help take your mind off of things? I know that's what I need most in that state of mind.

[indilwen]

I'm sorry. That's a terrible feeling.

[magi_lia]

<3 HUGGLES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it will get better....but slowly, very slowly.