i am stronger. i am better at not hating myself. i am better with you. because you dont give me a fucking choice.

you told me i should get over myself. this is just a quip. just a reminder. of how bad this might hurt to begin with. how bad it might get. and now im putting it aside. i hope you know that you could hurt me, more than i could hurt you. thats not true. i could. ive always been keeping tabs on who i could really rip apart if i needed to. wo would ( Read more... )

things under the sun

the only way ive ever gotton there....was thinking of some random older man taking advantage of me, or hurting me, or making me stay in all day and haing no way out.

i would like to not.

this is a stupid game ( Read more... )

no one comes back to this ( Read more... )

and singing along to brittany spears. in my kitchen.

guys, this isnt my lj any more. my new name is sandy_dreams. so if u love me enough to be reading my lj, go there now. ok?? ok. because for un momento i thought i never mentioned that. ha. ha. thats silly of me.

so getting to liovejournal...then getting logged in...then getting to update...all took way to frickin long.....i wouldn't suggest it. im going to rant, and i may cry here. i just want everyone to know that this happens to be at 10:47 pm, and im emotional, and its new to my body. all of this is all coming out, but it hasn't for awhile. so just ( Read more... )

i wish you liked to cuddle more ( Read more... )

last night was the awsomeist ever. indeed it was. there was a jazz concert downtown, and i went to cara's home, and nick wasn't hyome but i said hi to his parents. we danced. in the street. i love christina. i so love sky. it was awsome. and chad and i weren't so bad. it was oh so nice indeed ( Read more... )

mmmmm.....yum. the sweet taste of sobriety ( Read more... )