I'm going through a pretty rough patch right now. I've just been feeling really lonely recently and can't seem to shake it. I haven't really made any good friends since moving to Indy. I'm not that close with anyone back home. One of my good friends down in Bloomington hasn't really stayed in contact since I've moved. We've done a few things here ( Read more... )

I thought about cutting for the first time in years. My scars have almost completely faded.

I just want to be loved.

He doesn't even remember the perfect kiss that I described in my last post. Or if he does he's claiming that he doesn't, why I don't know. Either way he's an asshole. A huge asshole. And that is what I get for letting my guard down. Stupid stupid stupid.

Kissing someone in the rain at night under a streetlight is probably the most amazing thing in the entire world. :)

It's 5am and I got home from work about an hour ago. I'm not tired. Working third shift has definitely been interesting. I've really only been on thirds for the past week and not even really thirds. Next week I'll be on my permanent schedule, 8pm-4:30am. The hardest part has been waking up at 1 in the afternoon, feeling oddly groggy and thus, ( Read more... )

I've been sitting here crying for the past hour and I'm not even sure why ( Read more... )

It's late (for me) and I can't sleep ( Read more... )

So I was home last weekend for my aunt Sara's funeral. She'd been battling cancer for over a year, it was sudden, but not unexpected if that makes sense. My aunt and uncle from Missouri came up and it was awesome to see them. My aunt Jo was diagnosed in January with breast cancer and I hadn't seen her since. She's the aunt who attempted suicide 3 ( Read more... )

So I just got back from our trip to Louisiana last night. I had a great time. It's been a really long time since we went on a vacation as a family. And it was so nice to see my cousin, it had been years since the last time he visited. The first couple of days in Baton Rouge were beyond awkward. A lot of people were staying at the same hotel for the ( Read more... )

My parents went down to Missouri to visit my aunt. She refused visitors twice. Even when she agreed to see anyone she answered with only one word, yes or no. She's in bad shape. We are hoping they transfer her to a long term mental health facility. She needs serious help. She needs to have 24 hour surveillance ( Read more... )