Next Friday is Kevin's birthday. He would have turned twenty-four. He died when he was only 18. I wonder everyday what his life would have been like. He would have graduated from college by now. Maybe even started a career. Maybe even a family. It saddens me to think about all the things he missed out on. That maybe things would have gotten better ( Read more... )

Sooo.... last night was my friend's 21st birthday. A bunch of us went out at midnight to celebrate. Including the guy from work that I like. It was a lot of fun, we talked some, laughed a lot, it was awkward or weird at all. There were a couple times where it was just the two of us and I almost asked about if/when we were ever going to hang out ( Read more... )

So the guy from the previous entry that, who I told I liked, finally said he wasn't freaked out. He said he was a little shocked but he really likes working with me and thinks it would be great to see each other outside of work. So I'm not going to get my hopes up but it feels good. Unfortunately he's in Florida for spring break so it will be a ( Read more... )

I've been having the problem lately of telling people that I like them. And then totally freaking them out and things between us just get awkward. I told myself not to, to wait but I went ahead and said something. Now I'm afraid it's going to mess up our friendship. Stupid, stupid me.

These past 6 months have been hard. It reminds me of what my freshman year was like. I don't have anyone here in Bloomington that I really am "friends" with. Sure I get along great with everyone I work with, that's why I spend so much time there. But I don't have anyone that I go out and do stuff with. I tried to make plans with someone this past ( Read more... )

I want to believe that falling in love is possible. I want to believe in forever.

Aaron and I got in a fight two nights ago. He was ranting and raving about the new plastic bag ban that San Jose voted on. He thought it was stupid, impractical, and saw no point in helping the environment. He mostly complained about how it would be inconvenient. He's afraid other cities will follow suit. I on the other hand think it's a pretty ( Read more... )

I'm not happy with the life I live ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to leave my boyfriend. It's not even the distance that's the problem. Texting and skype and seeing each other once a month has been enough. He just isn't who I thought he was and I don't think I'll ever be happy in the long run ( Read more... )

I don't even know how it happened really but one minute we were emailing each other back and forth, the next we were texting all day long, then talking for hours and hours on the phone and then suddenly we decided to meet. I guess it didn't happen as suddenly as it seemed. We've really been talking for almost a month now. But it feels fast. I ( Read more... )