I wish I could say that my life has been on a roller coaster lately. But sadly it's been mostly downs ( Read more... )

i am falling apart ( Read more... )

it's been a really long time since I've felt this way. This giddy happy.

strike that. amazing how quickly things can change.

Drop a heart, break a name.

I'm sitting here at work and I should probably be doing something productive, dishes, locking up, whatever. But I feel like I hardly ever get a chance to just breathe anymore. The past few weeks have been crazy hectic with school. I've had exams and lab reports and pop quizzes and I just can't seem to ever feel caught up. Work has been hectic too ( Read more... )

I just read through the last entry that I posted which was nearly 8 months ago. Surprisingly, not a lot has changed. Stephen and I never did talk again or become friends again just like I predicted. Not that I didn't try. But really I'm ok with it. I saw him around a lot this semester because I had a class with his girlfriend, so in a way it was a ( Read more... )

Three days. I have three days left at IU this year. While I'm thrilled to be going home for the summer, at the same time, I really really don't want to go ( Read more... )

I feel really out of place. I love being home. I love Bloomington. But I don't really seem to feel like I belong in either place. When I'm home I love seeing my parents and my sister. And my friends. But the feeling doesn't seem to last as long as it used to. My parents have spent the majority of my break working, which I completely understand. I ( Read more... )

The past few weeks have been ridiculous. I don't know if and when it's ever going to stop. I would say it started with the anniversary of Kevin's suicide. 2 years this year. Seems impossible that its been 2 years because it sure feels like it was just yesterday. When I was home for Thanksgiving my sister and I went into Farm and Fleet and just ( Read more... )

Wow it's been almost 4 months since I've written. I never would have thought I'd be here today thinking and feeling the things that I do. Back in June I was soo looking forward to coming back to Indiana and being with Allison and Alicia and everyone. Now I would do anything to be back in Urbana. I don't regret living with them at all. Because I ( Read more... )

So it's really hard to believe that this summer is already halfway over. In a way I'm counting down the days until I get to go back to Bloomington and live with Allison and Alicia. And see Alaina and Jen. I miss them all so much. Not to mention I hate hate hate summer school. The class itself isn't that hard. Much easier than when I took calc at IU ( Read more... )