i cried over you for the first time. and i did it in front of someone else. that someone was my new someone. she has endured much b/c of our history. but she has been incredible thru it all. but this isnt about her. this isnt even about you really. this about me letting you go. and this is about me learning how to be real ( Read more... )

i am bruised, damaged, torn, battered, weathered, worn ( Read more... )

my head hurts, my heart hurts. you never cared before. why bother now. and why do i bother trying to find out. why do you make it so easy ( Read more... )

you unprivated your myspace account today. i find it interesting that you go back and forth with that. i find it even more interesting that i often wander back to it, just to see ( Read more... )

i am afraid to let you go. although i am with someone new. although i want you to go. just although. it seems that everytime it ends, it is you who returns. and everytime you return you come a little too late. but this time i am not looking back. at least i am trying not to. sometimes i see reflections of what used to be in my rear view. i see ( Read more... )

okie dokie-heres the good and bad ( Read more... )

alright so here's how it goes ( Read more... )

i rock...its official. finished one of papers (its not due until next week) its only a draft, but last year my draft was accepted without further need for revision! (its HIST, so its not THAT hard) one down-one to go...then i started reading more crap...read read read. but still i am the shizzle my nizzle! fo sho!

caged
repressed
bottled
encased
enraged

spiraling
out
of
control
faster
into
darkness

light
escapes
from
no
visible
surface
break

alone
afraid
panic
sets
in

reaching
searching
grasping
finding
no
one
nothing
left
to
cling
to

you
are
gone
.

I am not over you, plain and simple. That fact hit me square between the eyes this past week. You were there and it was all I could do to avoid you. I feel no ill will towards you, none at all. In fact I want nothing but the best for you. I know that you are "seeing" someone else. And thats great....for you. But for me, that just plain sucks. It ( Read more... )