..................................*sigh*

I don't understand myself. I always think I have everything figured out and set up in my mind. There are few people who come along in this world that have the ability to make my walls fall. There are certain people in this world whom you will always expect, and never receive. There are certain people in this ( Read more... )

Out on your own,
Cold and alone again.
Can this be what you really wanted, baby?

Blame it on me,
Set your guilt free.
Nothing can hold you back now.

Now that you're gone,
I feel like myself again.
Grieving the things I can't repair and willing...

To let you blame it on me,
And set your guilt free.
I don't want to hold you back now love.

I can't ( Read more... )

*sigh*

like always, it's been a while. That's ok  - i make these few and far between so my friends don't get too sick of my ever-emotional entries. haha.

soooo... living the single life. Pretty interesting, really. Not real used to doing it - especially when you get so used to being with someone you're now training yourself to learn to live without. ( Read more... )

I havn't updated in a really long time.

It seems lately I havn't had the time or the energy.

Updating reminds me of you. Silly, huh? Then again, everything lately reminds me of you - so I guess a journal entry shouldn't make much difference.

Going to see the Boomsday fireworks tonight. 
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i miss you...

If the truth was known and a light was shown
On every hidden part of my soul
Most would turn away, shake their head and say
She still has such a long way to go
If the truth was know you'd see that the only good in me
Is Jesus, oh it's Jesus

If the walls could speak of the times I've been weak
When everybody thought I was strong
Could I show my face if it ( Read more... )

ok I just gotta get this out b/c I'm gonna explode if another person pretends to know what this feels like to make me feel better...

you DON'T understand. you DON'T.  And I just wanna cry.

oh damnit, I can't write anything b/c then there'll just be questions, and questions make me think about it. And i just don't want to do any of that ANYMORE. I do ( Read more... )

I miss you, miss you so bad
I don't forget you, oh it's so sad
I hope you can hear me
I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was the day I found it won't be the same

I didn't get around to kiss you
Goodbye on the hand
I wish that I could see you again
I know that I can't

I hope you can hear me cause I remember it clearly

The day you slipped away
Was ( Read more... )

its been a couple days since I've been up to my ears in job hunting.

I started at Lonestar tonight. went in at 6:00, got off at 10:30 - made $50 that I gave straight away to my dad for a high phone bill last month. Bummer. I think my whole life is one debt after the other. That's a suck y feeling...  I still owe my parents for that $113 speeding ( Read more... )

ok, so  - -  I've been home for about two full days - and I can safely say I've drowned myself  job searching. I came home Sunday evening - and by Monday afternoon I was emersed in finding a summer job. Here are all the places I've applied so far:    5 online applications - - Costco ($10/hour!!! wooo), Best Buy, Old Navy, Home Depot, and Petsmart.  ( Read more... )