Weightless?

[hopesclan]

I want to die. I can't take this anymore. All the pressure--I am going to collapse under the weight of it all. I just can't stand it. Help me! Someone, relieve me from this pain. We can't do it. I can't do it. Somewhere in this pain there is freedom, but I don't see it. I just want release. To be able to go to sleep and never wake up. I

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[blackdublinski]

I'm so sorry you're going through so much, it sounds awful. is there something thats triggered you to feel this way? it will end, I've gone through really rough suicidal periods and they (luckily) did not last forever, they were horrible but they passed and there was light on the other side
are you getting any support/treatment at the mo? i hope you have someone to help you out there, good luck and hold on!

sometimes to be weightless all we need to do is free our minds...

xx

[hopesclan]

Hmm, what's triggered this? Well our cat, our therapist ditched us, fish died, we feel all alone, so scared...bad anniversary dates from past trauma all spiraling together. Basically just having an overall rotten time of things.

Yeah, we have all that professional support. Otherwise we are all alone. Spent all last night wandering the city aimlessly. Not very safe--didn't even realize what I was doing until 4:30 am when some homeless guy shook me and asked if I was ok. No coat, no shoes, no identification in the cold rain for 8 hrs. I was so lost. (and no: no drugs/alcohol were involved).

Oh well, just going through a down stage I guess. It was my birthday yesterday. Happy 25th BD, me. LOL

Thanks for your concern, I do value it. And yes, I will hold on. I always do. Don't really think we have much of a choice.

[blackdublinski]

I'm sorry it went so badly, I've had similar birthday experiences, something about depression makes birthdays so hard to handle.

I do think we have a choice, just sometimes its hard to see

therapists can be complete bastards, I've had a lot of experience there. and being ditched by them. pah.

hang in there xx