I fired my dietition about 2 months ago. Coupling the issue that it is now taking 4-6 hours to transport to and from her appointments (she moved and I take the dumb short busses and transfer a million times to get there) and that we just basically sat there at a stand still since we werent doing that great in recovery, well I gave myself ( Read more... )

My newest obsession appears to be cutting out eyes. How strange. I have a whole collage of them so far. So many shapes, sizes. Never two eyes, just one at a time. Have a kid covering his eyes, several shut eyes...then a picture with people who have tape over there mouths. Idk where this project is going to go, but thats what I've been doing.

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So, I've been realizing something lately. I weigh backwards, yet every time I go to step on that scale I try to step on it forwards. My RD tells me to turn around and I do. I don't want to know my weight, I know its the healthiest thing for me right now, and yet, I will not step on backwards without my RD correcting me ( Read more... )

The next time a taxi driver tells me that they are uncomfortable or scared my dog, that they have had bad experiences with dogs, this is going to be my response ( Read more... )

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I want to die. I can't take this anymore. All the pressure--I am going to collapse under the weight of it all. I just can't stand it. Help me! Someone, relieve me from this pain. We can't do it. I can't do it. Somewhere in this pain there is freedom, but I don't see it. I just want release. To be able to go to sleep and never wake up. I ( Read more... )

Our therapist quit on us today. She had a baby and decided she didn't have time anymore. After a year and a half of convincing us otherwise--that she would be 'honored to be the first person in our life to come back'--she, too, never came back. She promised the littles over and over again. She got mad at me when I told them to be careful about ( Read more... )

emotionally raped...if you'd like a turn, please take a number.

Today, once again, we commit. We do not commit to perfection, to always be positive, or to always do things right. Instead we commit to understanding. We may, actually we will; at times feel hopeless, worthless, and suicidal. We will not want to go on. Things will be dark and scary and it will get worse. It will get worse and we wont think the pain ( Read more... )