i'm way lonely.

do i really still like him? why do i always have the need to HAVE TO be with someone. all.the.time.

i think that my feelings for him are only for right now. and they'll go away very soon. maybe not. idontknow.....

sex makes too much complications.

my love is gone for him. it left when he didn't stop me from leaving last night.
i guess sometimes things have to end on really bad terms...

scotty is gone.

RIP scotty. i love you.

you were the one that consoled me and was there for me when gilbe died. what do i do now? who do i lean to? you died the same way :(

this needs to stop. the boys need to learn to stop doing drugs.

the talk i had with him last night has been needed for the past 8 months.

i think we'll be okay now :)

i really need to stop this with him.........

ah!

it's just sooo difficult *sigh*

i'm so stressed out. me not being able to spend money... is very difficult. no more shopping. boo.

things are starting to look a little better between us... :)

the sad thing is... after what happened last week... i would still be with him :\

on the outside looking in.