John and I have been helping Matthew with his college essay, which is a bit bizarro. I guess I should have seen this coming, but it's strange to think he's a young man now.

Home is tough, Mama and Tatus are divorcing, for real this time.

I'm here for Christmas, but eager to go home. 

DR, soon ( Read more... )

it took me three months of heartache to finally break what i was talking about in my last post. me and glen are done. i cant keep doing this to myself, where i am involved with people that i am more into than they are into me. i'm not sure if this is my fault, or it's just how i'm programmed, but it's so UNHEALTHY. between tom, and AJ, and glen, ( Read more... )

you cant stay in the hospital forever

so i listened to some bright eyes today for the first time in a really really long time, and it's unsettling. it brings me back really far to places i havent though about in a long time, staying up too late doing work and living in the meadows. it reminded me how hopeless i was, and how i thought i was going to be stuck in the dark forever. dead of ( Read more... )

so since the end of January... i was promoted... tom moved into the city, and back into my life.... i DIDNT get to move overseas.... i renewed my lease to live in the bronx.... became unsatisfied with my job... i think that wraps up the basics ( Read more... )

i always feel like i have something to say, but when it comes down to me typing it just never comes out ( Read more... )

so i think me and sam are over-over. even though to say that we were "seeing eachother" is as nice as you can be about our situation. i have not legit spoken more than a couple of words to him since my vacation. i cant believe that was over a month ago. barbados seems like last week ( Read more... )

you just cant have everything, i guess ( Read more... )

i CANNOT see sam again. i have to keep reminding myself that it is bad bad bad, and that i hang out with him for the W-R-O-N-G reasons ( Read more... )