exhausted and wired

[hostage_of_hope]

Can't sleep. nightmares. been awake almost an hour. This happened the last time I drank. Hope my adrenaline crashes and I can sleep soon. I'm starving. forget eating! not with my stomach feeling tore up.

therapy in the morning.

**update** no therapy. She's sick. But that's good because one of my children is sick too. I want to be home

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[bookgurrl]

Sorry you had a rough night. And that therapy got cancelled. Your therapist works Sundays? Wow. Hope your little one feels better soon. And I hope you get some rest today.

[hostage_of_hope]

It was such a blessing! The place works with our church, and it across the street. Being a member of the church they were willing to be flexible. I feel that God really blessed me with that! They even take my insurance so it costs me nothing.

[bookgurrl]

Wow - that's great! No co-pays even? You have great insurance! I always have at least a co-pay until I pay off my deductible and out of pocket max and that usually doesn't happen until about August of each year. My psych doesn't take insurance at all so I have to pay completely out of pocket for him, the dietitian isn't covered by insurance either, and my therapist is out of network. My mental health bills are enormous!

[hostage_of_hope]

Ouch!! I can't imagine. I wouldn't be able to get any help if it costs me that much. Honestly. And it wouldn't be because we didnt think that it was worth it. You just can't pay what you don't have. I'm saving up for the nutritionist. But I honestly feel like there isn't anything she is going to be able to tell me. I know about basic metabolic rates. I know about protein and fats and carbs. I have an app that tells me what the balance I need to eat and recommendations for specific macros. I can google or play around with the amount of calorie consumption. What is she going to tell me that I don't know? I don't mean to sound arrogant I just don't want to waste my money being told things I already know.

[hostage_of_hope]

every word described me. efficient the not sick enough. Not thin enough. Thanks for sharing. So very much