melt down city

[hostage_of_hope]

I took a shower, go to get dressed.... And my jeans are getting too small! seriously? This fucking sucks. They are my favorite pair of jeans. ones I picked out. Not ones that are given to me. Mine. My only pair in this size. My only pair I like. This is so frustrating. I'm so stressed

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[bookgurrl]

It is so hard, I know. I weigh 30 pounds more than my lowest weight right now. Talk about a body difference! But eventually you do get used to it. I didn't think I could ever live and be okay at this size when I weighed what I used to, but I do I've survived. And I'm still not "fat." Not even close. You will get used to a new weight. You just have to be patient with yourself and be kind to yourself. Eventually it will become your new normal. Gaining those 30 pounds was tough, but I'm much healthier now. I was dying at that weight. It will be worth it. Just give it some time. You won't keep gaining forever either. Your body will settle into a set point. Whenever I pine to fit into those pants that fit me 30 lbs ago (actually nothing fit - I had to safety pin and belt my pants to keep them up! I was too small for any adult or ever juniors size!) my husband reminds me that that wasn't the right weight for me. It was a "sick weight." You can do this. xoxo

[hostage_of_hope]

Thanks for your kind words. I'm so upset. I don't even know I'd I have gained weight but I'm so bloated. And these are my favorite jeans. I was proud of these jeans. I don't want a new body. I just don't want be sick. This is so ridiculous.

I measured myself against the wall and then marked it. Then measured how tall I am. I'm OVER 5'9"  Ugh. I hate that. I hate how tall I am. I airways wanted to be shorter

[bookgurrl]

Funny - I always wanted to be taller. I'm only 5'3 and always wished I had nice long legs.

[hostage_of_hope]

I think we all want what we aren't. I would love to be Kelly Rippa small. Petite, and feminine. Not this tall ogra amazon that I am!

I did like my long legs, but that was before all my muscles were wasted away and now they have cottage cheese up top.