I think I'm losing my mind.

[hostage_of_hope]

I caved. I weighed. I spent the entire night dreaming about getting fat. Woke up and weighed myself. I'm up over 2.5 pounds. That's a five pound gain in a week. I'm so pissed off and irritated. None of my clothes are going to fit me. you have to understand that I don't have a wide variety of sizes. I lost over 90 pounds. I didn't keep those

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[bookgurrl]

I'm sorry it's so hard love. I've been through this a million times and the swelling doesn't last forever. You should have seen the swelling I had after fasting for over 120 days and then going to residential where they fed me close to 2000 calories a day! I definitely had that pregnant look. It does go away.

When I was in residential and had passes we used to go to thrift stores all the time to get clothes because our sizes were changing so much. It was a great place to get size appropriate clothes on the cheap. I found some great buys there much to my surprise. Designer jeans and tops for just a couple dollars. You'll feel better if you have clothes that fit.

Stay strong girl! xoxo

[hostage_of_hope]

Ugh... this picture brings back so many memories.....

[hostage_of_hope]

I don't really have the money to even go to a thrift store. Not with Thanksgiving and Christmas coming. And my nieces birthday. And my daughters that we just had. money is so tight! I picked a lousy time to recover.

And some things i read say it won't last. Some say (like cat on my lap) that its insulation. In which case is not temporary.

I'm sick of struggling. I wish I didn't care.

[hostage_of_hope]

So I'm looking at dealing with this for months?  No wonder people relapse. There doesn't feel like any pay off in this.