exhausted

[hostage_of_hope]

first night of God sleep in days. I don't think I woke up but once. And that was to roll off my aching shoulder. Still haven't weighed in. I'm surprised is not the temptation it once was. But I'm anxious to, only after my period. I have PMS so bad right now. And a hormone headache.

I so feel like I'm staking that line where any second I could go

Comments

[bookgurrl]

I'm glad you finally got some sleep. That must help a lot.

I sometimes question why I'm in therapy too. I've been in therapy for about nine years now and I've talked about everything there is to talk about and I still have an e/d and marital issues and family problems. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to get out of it. I guess I am not as bad off as I used to be, but I can't tell if that's meds or therapy. Still, it's a good place to vent.

What does your therapist say about the eating issues? Is she able to help at all?

I cut my hair not too long ago. It's definitely different but I'm going to grow it back out to really long again I think. Still, it was nice for a change. I say go for it!

[hostage_of_hope]

She had an eating disorder once, so it's nice that she can relate to the feelings. She does help, but it's in retrospect. She gives me tools to get me through the moment, to self soothe, but it always makes me feel angry when I practice them because it doesn't work IMMEDIATELY, which makes me feel like a failure, and blah blah blah

Eventually when I look back I realize that it did help me, but I want it to help immediately. So shes helping. It's just not as fast as I'd like.

if I cut it off Ill share a photo.