I feel so abnormal today

[hostage_of_hope]

Weighed today. Yeah, two days in a row. That's not a good sign towards recovery. The funny thing is today they voice telling me NOT to do it was louder than the voices to do it. I went down the quarter of a pound that I was up from yesterday. So, I'm about the same

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[bookgurrl]

Interesting - it does sound like your eating issues have been festering for some time now.

I was in remission with my first child but was struggling when I got pregnant with the second. I was underweight at the start of the pregnancy and my midwives told me I had to gain at least 25 pounds or they could not do a home birth with me. Those were 25 painful pounds to gain. And I did not lose a ton of weight breastfeeding - my body held some of the weight to have enough fat stores to be able to breastfeed. As soon as I stopped nursing, I relapsed hard.

Ugh, I hate it when the dog whines in the crate. Mine drives me crazy with that. Luckily he's quiet at night now.

Your ex issues would drive me crazy - what an ass to say that to the kids!

Hang in there girl. xoxo

[hostage_of_hope]

I just can't stay this size. I get that it's not that big, but I don't feel comfortable. If I can just get down a few pounds and button my jeans, then maintain. I think I can do that and not keep going. I'm still within the normal range. But then the smart voice says I'm not. My body composition isn't healthy because a lot of my weight is just skin I'm lugging around. But I want to fit my jeans. I pulled up my skin the other day, and I most definitely could fit them in my skin wasn't there. But it doesn't make me feel any better knowing it's skin.

She pooped on the carpet for the first time as well. but the upside is I have that stool sample the vet wanted today. haha

there are times I wish some pretty non Christian things on my ex husband. I get tired of his shenanigans.