let the countdown begin.

[hostage_of_hope]

Weighed again. Because I suck. I'm up a pound. I don't even care because I know I didn't eat more than 1400 calories yesterday, and exercised. So it's even less. but I haven't went to the bathroom in a few days. Should take some fiber and guzzle some water. I hate not moving my bowels. Spent some times yesterday arguing with my ex via email. I

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[bookgurrl]

Wow. I can't believe the ex won't pay for braces. That sucks. That makes no sense. Does your ortho do orthobank? Ours takes a down payment and we pay the rest in installments.

It sounds like you are really slipping here. I'm worried about you.

I get the holiday stress. I'm right there with you. We got through Hanukkah but we still have to do Christmas with our Christmas-celebrating relatives. Which means we have to see my mom. Dread.

I hope you can give yourself a break today. xoxo

[hostage_of_hope]

They do have a payment plan, but its two hundred dollars a month. Which would be a hundred dollars a month for me, but I can't even afford to do that right now. What I can afford to do is income tax after next pay for one child in a lump sum. He is willing to pay for 50%, but only if I reduce the child support and allow him to make the payments directly. Which I am unwilling to do. I don't have the money to pay for it right now, so reducing child support does not help? So they will just have to wait. There isn't anything I can do about that. If I let myself dwell on it I feel guilty. Lots of people don't even get the chance to have braces, so having to wait a little bit shouldn't be a big deal. I just hate that he isn't workable with me. I have NEVER went back on an agreement, ever. He has several times. So I'm not sure why he has a problem with paying for one and letting me pay for the other, and splitting the final kids bill

[hostage_of_hope]

ps I found out that we have a few years until his bones harden. I Google it. Hopefully it's right. That's a load off. I'd rather then not go through that.

[hostage_of_hope]

He makes me bitter. I just have a hard time imagining my hatred for him being larger than my love for my kids. But his seems to be. I feel I'm pretty workable. But one day I will never have to speak to him again. This is temporary