Sorry but its a journal. I was journaling

[hot__lips]

Cannot forget, refuse to regret
So glad I met you

but im movin onnnn fuckers! yeah!
cant WAIT for this weekend. SO utterly completely excited!
Its the only thing getting me through this week.

I got home from the gym tonight and went to my room.
i cried for so long. I wanted to cry before i went but i held it all in.
Im sick of feeling so fucking fat &

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[semaj_miasma]

so i felt that today too. i was gonna go for a run... and i thought to myself... "thats embarassing... what if someones sees you... i should just let it go and become the huge fatty i am gonna be..."
stupid i know... but i felt that way. so i didnt go for my run.

[hot__lips]

hehe well i went to the gym for an hour and a half so i did your bit for you!
arent i an awesome friend!? :)
love u jamesy poo

[semaj_miasma]

i feel a little better cause i went tonight....
though i cant believe i let myself slip. i was doing like 3 laps of this huge oval... and now i could only do one.
bad, BAD james. what gym do you go to and how much?

[_brand_new_girl]

ok
1. you shouldnt feel fat and gross... ur not even close to it!
2. I know how you feel about the abundance of skinny/pretty girls at your work... i have them at mine too and i hate it.
3. I feel like the fat girl who brings her friends down aswell.
4. i have all my wedding songs planned aswell... and KC & JoJo is SO one of them...
..feel better..
xhugsx

[hot__lips]

thankyou
sometimes just knowing someone can relate helps.
at times i feel so alone in my 'shithouse moods'
thanks :)
DAMN PRETTY WORK GIRLS
and ohhhh yes i chose that kc & jo jo song like 4 years ago...its awesome hey!

[_brand_new_girl]

i can relate to nearly everything you say usually... its so weird...
and i SO chose that song about 4 years ago aswell... aswell as aerosmith - dont want to miss a thing ... its so cheesy but would be such a good wedding song!

omg i have so many songs chosen i am so sad...

[hot__lips]

haha my 'first dance with my husband' song is to unchained melody
"ohhhh my looove...my darlliiing, i hunger for your touch"
ahhhh i almost cry when i listen to them, its so pathetic :P
i should find a husbad first!

[the_oneandonly]

FUCK YEAH THE WEEKEND!

It is SO the only thing getting me through this week too Sarah Anne! Can't wait to see you on Friday arvo.

Also, where the 'fat, ugly, gross' thing is concerned: It's always easy for other people to say "you have no reason to feel that way!!!" But we all know we can't help what we feel inside, and generally compliments don't REALLY help our view of ourselves. They are nice temporarily. However, having said that, I am going to be completely honest and say - I have many many many skinny, hot, sexy, etc. friends. And out of all of them, you exude BEAUTY, which far and beyond exceeds their 'hotness.' They will be old and grey one day, and no longer be able to dress skanky, so they won't be so hot any more. Yet your beauty will follow you through all your years. Watch and see!
And you know I'm always right ;)
Love you.

[hot__lips]

haha that sounds so much like
you may be ugly but you have a great personality! hehehe
ok but i know what you're getting at lisa
thank you so much, your support has pulled me through the hardest of times
it means so much.
i love you heaps
xox

[the_oneandonly]

Well you know that's not what it means!
Some girls are pretty, some are hot, some are beautiful. It is much better to be beautiful than anything else. Because beauty is constant. And that's what you are!

What does this face mean Caits? :/

[_idiosyncrasies]

it means hmmmmmm.

[_idiosyncrasies]

:/

[hot__lips]

um...ok...thanks?

[_idiosyncrasies]

so'k xox

[hot__lips]

sarcasms.
i still dont get it.