It's true that the part of me just want to play safe in a line, keep watching everyone from this box.
it's true that I kept saying that I believed my self that I could do something that I want, .... but in reality I doubted it.
Stuck in my same position,
you deserve so much more
There’s a whole world around us,
just waiting to be explored

the outsider, ( Read more... )

I went to blackberry live & rockin' concert last night ^^ the guest were 2PM, Suede, Taio Cruz and Shontelle. :)
it was awesome~~

I can't believe that Junsu was really handsome in real life.. more handsome than Khunnie ^^;;
Khun looked the same :P
even though I'm fan of Taecyon, my eyes kept hooked with Junsu :P *I'm sorry taecyon..*
they said ( Read more... )

if I feel so depressed and feel no hope, I isolate my self on the roof.
if I feel there's no one love me, I stare to the sky..
if I feel there's something wrong with my life, I look the clouds..
if I feel the tears push me to let it flow, I close my eyes, feel the wind.

then I feel there is a love.
the greatest love from God.

I like lying on the high ( Read more... )

relieved ^^
I won't ask something sensitive about this feeling because now I know, it's not right to tell anything about this.
You.. are you.
and I will walk on my own path :)
with or without you, I'll still move forward :)
My heart is trembling because of too anticipating this time for so long.

Not looking for a hope anymore.

Will just lean my life to ( Read more... )

finally, for the first time, I wrote the essay in the Music essay book.
To say it honestly, it feels better to write there since the three wrote everything there. It feels so comfortable to say everything there.. about what I feel, my worry, everything! ^^

Well, I'm quite introvert to others on the real life since I've been being too afraid of ( Read more... )

okay. JYJ will visit my country this year.
I heard, it will be on April 9th 2011. Well, some admins who made the proposal have been taking contact with the promoter, and it was 100% confirmed that they will come, all we have to wait is the official confirmation from JYJ itself and the promoter to publish the confirmation :)

I'm willing to go.
I have ( Read more... )

Start to take a courage to reach my dream..

so today, I received my passport. ^^

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there's no sun.
and it keeps raining inside, pouring my heart with the feeling that hard to explain.
some said love is a razor that shatter your heart to bleed.
some said loneliness is the rain that never can catch the rainbow.

there's something that I don't quite understand my self. eventhough I have so many friends outside, it seems hard to tell ( Read more... )

When I've been trying hard to escape and forget some bad things I've done in the past.. trying to leave the love that I had... she, reminds me with these wonderful words..
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I LOVE YOU, my family
I LOVE YOU, my friend everyday
I LOVE YOU, my one and only lover

And you and you.

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Oh no..
it becomes worst..
why did I back to my previous (un-healthy) coping system?
problem=sleep
more problem=more sleep.

I should stay until midnight today.. I have to pray... again.
God.. help me. TT

it's not that I keep complaining the same thing.. but I don't want to be always trapped on this matter.
everytime that name came into my dream, my day ( Read more... )