I haven't posted anything real in approximately eight thousand years.  I know you all care.  But, yes, just to break your little hearts just that much more, this shant be a real entry either.  Suffice it to say that I am enjoying college, and that at this particular instant, I mean right now, although I am very much in the throes of easily the most ( Read more... )

It's been so long since I've seen your face, except inside of my head
Counting down the days 'til you're home, hoping then we'll share a bed

It's been so long since I've heard your voice, except inside of my head
Waiting for your phone call to ring, replaying things that you said

Are you feeling just like me, feeling down, down, down
Wishing you were ( Read more... )

So my dad had a handyman come over today to fix up some stuff around the house - paint our front door, spackle things, I don't know ( Read more... )

Yeah, we were just two friends in lust
And baby, that just don't mean much
You trained me not to love
After you showed me what it was

My dad told me this song reminded him of me.
It made me want to cry.

Spinning, laughing, dancing
To her favorite song
A little girl with nothing wrong
Is all alone

Eyes wide open
Always hoping for the sun
And she'll sing her song to anyone
That comes along

Fragile as a leaf in autumn
Just fallin' to the ground
Without a sound

Crooked little smile on her face
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I'm sick of this.  Why does giving a damn have to hurt so much?  I should cut that out.  After all, I function at perhaps my most seamless with the aid of apathy.  Wow.  Life is so much easier when you're a cold, merciless bitch.  I really wish someone would just open me up and replace my hot blood with ice water, my beating heart with a black hole ( Read more... )

It's just a bad movie, where there's no crying - handing the keys to me in this Red Lion, where the lock that you locked in the suite says there's no prying. When the breath that you breathed in the street screams there's no science. When you look how you looked then to me, then I cease lying and fall into silence.

It's just a life story, so there's ( Read more... )

So this summer I've been going to the gym a lot.  Yesterday when I went, I think I sweat more than I have in my entire life.  I nearly killed myself on the treadmill alone.  Working out until you feel like you're going to throw up beats the hell out of drinking until you feel like you're going to throw up.  But then, somehow I don't think exercise ( Read more... )

13.  One of my greatest fears in life is disappointing you.  Funny, because you should have disappointed me all those years ago - but I guess that manifested itself in a different way.  You'll never know what I felt or thought back then.  I wonder, though, if the way you are now affects the way I act now even more than the past has..
14.  Why didn't ( Read more... )

7.  What I did to you was truly awful.  I'm truly sorry.
8.  Don't hurt my friend, please.  I like being friends with you.
9.  Like white on rice, under different circumstances.
10.  I think we would get along even better now than we already have this whole time, but something is holding me back from calling you to hang out.
11.  I wonder if you look ( Read more... )