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Regret
Each one represents something, a memory, an unshed tear, things forgotten, things feared, and most often something I survived. I don't expect you to know that, and even if you did I wouldn't expect you to understand. You hold your breath, watching them fade, smiling as one by one they are erased. My feelings are declawed and toothless, worthless, ( Read more... ) -
Monster
It's a horrid feeling. It comes crawling out of the shadows and wraps itself around you so that you can see nothing else. It cuts you off from the rest of the world, blocking out the light of people around you. It squeezes, getting stronger with each moment instead of tiring. You try to distract yourself, to feel something else. You close your eyes ( Read more... ) -
Living Dead
Lines and scars and rivers of tears. The map of my life is drawn out on the skin. Pale, timid flesh is reprimanded by red, angry scabs, the writing of a mad man archived on my arms. I hide them away, keeping the pain secret, in the dark where absolute power belongs. I cry out under the glittering edge, watching as the world grows red. If Midas ( Read more... ) -
Crash
Have you ever crashed? Have you ever stood on the edge of the cliff, looked down, and stared yourself in the eye? Have you ever let yourself fall? Have you reached up for a hand and found nothing but air ( Read more... ) -
Real
Tissues stained with tears and blood lay around me on the floor. There aren’t many, but enough that anyone walking in would be disturbed. Next to me sits a long forgotten bowl of water, a once white washcloth turning the liquid a reddish brown. I watch the blood seep out of the ten evenly spaced, uniform cuts that go from my just bellow my wrist to ( Read more... ) -
Home Again
"I'm sorry." His voice caught me by surprise ( Read more... ) -
She
She snuggles closer, feeling the warmth take her, but it isn't the same. She dances and moves, her body pressed against another, but it isn't the same. She kisses and hugs and gives herself away, but there is nothing left to give. She pulls a familiar mask from the drawer and sets it over her face. A little more pretending and it might go away. The ( Read more... ) -
Love Him
I was watching him again. I knew I shouldn’t, but I couldn’t help it. For three years he was right next to me and I never thought to look, never thought to follow him around with my eyes. Now he’s across the room and I can’t take my eyes off of him. He’s so easy going with everyone. I watch him smile and laugh. I watch him chase people around the ( Read more... ) -
Nothing
“I told you she’d break your heart.” I stood in the doorway staring down at his prone figure laid out on the couch, keeping my voice low, not wanting to wake him. “I told you time and time again, she doesn’t know what love is . . . but then neither do you.” I crossed the room silently, settling myself down on the floor next to his head. “You played ( Read more... )
