when did i get to be so paranoid??

things are different.....

one side of me is such a cold, selfish bastard.
and the other is just sad and very scared.
i feel like i was never meant to live with myself, not in a i am going to do something stupid kind of way.
just that i feel split, frayed and breaking. how could i have gotten so far away from myself.

have a good night

there is just something great about wednesday, its like my little holiday every week. maybe its because its the middle of the week and everyone is neither trying to party and piss people off like they would on the weekend nor are they all bummed about the start of a long work week. everyone is at peace with the world and it makes me happy. well ( Read more... )

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ok sooooooo

camp is wicked fun they've basically jut let me play with hundred thousand dollar cameras all day

i miss my kaity (who did something last night that i totaly wish i was a part of)
when i get back there will be much rejoicing
i hope that i can have a good phone convo soon (aka alonger then 15 minutes)

later all
~matt

GAMBIT

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